then what happens?

when you think you see it in his eyes? when you're sitting there and your breathing has suddenly stopped because you can see it and you can't even take a breath to challenge him. to ask him to try and deny it. to try and say he doesn't feel it too.

you've been in this far too long. reaching. wishingandhoping. like you're one cycle ahead, all the time. so what happens when you think it could really be something? because he kissed you in public and brought up christmas presents before you did and you've been waking up in his bed more nights than you have in your own for weeks now?

do you jump ahead and start waiting for the end?
or do you stay level with him, level with a happiness and sense of certainty you've been too scared to really live in?

god, i love this boy.